Never shined doing what I've shown.

 

At 6 o'clock in the morning the last thing that I wanted to hear was loud music. I never used an alarm clock,but I would only wake up if I could hear my fathers music playing really loud. He would always put in the same Metallica CD and it would play.The song that would signal for me to get up and get up right then was a song called "Fuel." I'll never forget that.
Gimme Fuel,
Gimme Fire,
Gimme that which I desire,
Ooh!

Turn on...I see red
Adrenaline crash & crash my head
Nitro Junkie, Paint me dead
And I see red

One hundred plus through Black and White
War Horse, Warhead
Fuck 'Em Man, white knuckles tight
Through Black & White

Ohhh, On I Burn,
Fuel is pumping engines,
Burning hard, loose & clean

And I burn,
Churning my direction,
Quench my thirst with Gasoline

So Gimme Fuel,
Gimme Fire,
Gimme that which I desire,

Hey

Turn on beyond the bone
Swallow future, spit out home
Burn your face upon the crome
Yeah!

Take the corner, join the crash,
Headlights, Headlines
Another Junkie lives too fast
Yeah lives way too fast, fast, fast, oohh-aye

Ohhh, On I Burn
Fuel is pumping engines
Burning hard, loose & clean

And On I burn
Churning my direction,
Quench my thirst with Gasoline

So Gimme Fuel
Gimme Fire
Gimme that which I desire

Yeah-Heah

White Knuckle Tight!
(solo)

Gimmie Fuel.... On I burn, on and on
Gimmie Fire.... On I burn, on and on
My Desire....

Ohhh, On I Burn
Fuel is pumping engines
Burning hard, loose & clean

And I burn
Churning my direction
Quench my thirst with Gasoline

Gimme Fuel
Gimme Fire
Gimme that which I desire
Ooh

On I Burn!

Whenever I fall asleep listening to my ipod I almost always wake up to that song. Often it's the song "Sandman" by Metallica...and I usually fall asleep listening to Led Zeppelin or something. Is there really ways of communication through music? I would like to think so. It seems ever so strange that with just a song you can immediately feel all of your past emotions and everything seems so real. 

Sometimes I close my eyes and I'll put in my ear buds and listen to metallica and I'll slowly start to let the music get louder-almost like it's being turned up by him. And I'll take myself back to my old bedroom in my mind.-Painted purple & burgundy. I lay in my bed trying to imagine him in the other room getting ready for work. At 6:30am he would always open my door a little to make sure I was awake and getting my things gathered up for the day. He would just say "be good." My dad was a simple person.Not complex at all nor was he confusing. He was straight forward. Now that he's gone I feel closer to him but I also feel so far away.

Thinking about it now, I can remember times that I would just sit down and listen to his music after he passed away and I would close my eyes and get the sense that he was sitting there with me rocking out. I never thought that I would be just like him.-really-I didn't.I thought that I would end up being a really disfunctional girly-girl but I'm actually a really weird,disfuctional,artsy,loner type person. For the life of me I cannot make myself any happier.I'm starting to embrace this because it what has shaped me the past three years. Tragedy is my inspiration. 

In all honesty, I cannot function without music. Its the soundtrack of our lives,it burns memories to an era. Music truely has a magical connection to now and then. Think about it. If I say "Bohemian Rhapsody"- you either are thinking of Econoline vans with captains chairs or Waynes World! Music is a time machine. It can take you to the past with Led Zeppelin or to the future. I can't recall a lot of math formulas I've learned in school but I know every word to almost every 70s&80s rock song I've ever listened to.-Especially if it has an emotional attachment.

I highly recommend that you get in touch with your past-whether it be good or bad it's good to travel back there and take a good look at how you've come so far in your life.

3 years really does make the difference.

((I'll probably update this too))